Saturday, December 26, 2009

a poopyhead christmas.

christmas was beautiful! seriously in love with the holiday.
i felt older this christmas, like it wasn't all about me and that felt suprisingly good. i realized that i don't want as much anymore, so i don't need as many presents underneath the tree. i get bigger more important things and presents are about quality not quantity. i'm not going to lie and say that there wasn't some jealousy as ethan, ruthie, and christian sat eagerly at the top of the stairs waiting to go down and see what santa brought them and all i wanted to do was sleep another 4 hours. (they woke us up at 7:30) i miss the excitement that comes with childhood and truly believing in santa, but christmas is still beautiful all the same. it was bittersweet, because it's most likely the last christmas that we will spend with my papa, my mom's dad, but we made the most of it.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

"if hall and oates met at temple, do they have a hall hall?"

i am obsessed with my family.

today my dad, brennan, and i continued our 19 (15 with all of us) tradition of christmas eve shopping. every year, we go out and get my mom's presents and brennan and i both get to pick an early present. i'm sure it started as my dad going last minute, but i really love our little tradition.

here are some highlights from today's trip, because it was crankier than most.

  • brennan and i buying my dad's present in cvs and him thinking it was "ass wipes"
  • brennan buying the worst gummies ever and ending up throwing them at my dad's car from across the wal mart parking lot.
  • my dad asking brennan to get me a "super buffet" or "matress warehouse" gift card and brennan going into both places to ask if they did gift cards then walking right out.
  • telling the boys that jayda thinks hall & oates are nerdy. brennan getting offended. my dad explaining what nerd means. ("in my day, a nerd was someone who farted in the bathtub and ate the bubbles")
  • my dad using the word "unfurl" to tell my brother to unfold a poster. brennan making fun of him. 20 minutes later my dad gets mad at brennan and this conversation occured:
    dad- i'm about to unfurl something
    brennan- if you fart, i'm outta here
  • trying to pick out a new santa for my mom's collection, each involving an animal. calling her to say, "ok mom, a donkey, an elephant, a sheep, and a squirrel walk into a bar. which one do you sit beside?". she hung up on us. we chose the santa riding a donkey. it's nicer than it sounds.

i love my boys.
merry christmas, everyone.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

(c)luvin home.

i am seriously in love with carlisle. everything about it feels like home. there hasn't been a moment that i haven't been happy since i've been home. a list of things that have happened:

1. i wore my snuggie out in public, meaning to tyler's hockey game.
2. snowed a lot. very pretty.
3. had a drunken dance party with my parents and their friends. so much fun.
4. had a 717 gift exchange party with my BFFs.
5. got lunch with todd, jayda, and jack. then went to the cutest used book store.
6. went sledding/impromptu snowball fighting at 10:30 at night with some long lost friends. fell in love with sledding at night.
7. went to wing night with BFFs. embarrassed myself in front of yet another waiter.
"how do you like the cake?"
"i like it! it has raspberry in it and i'm happy with that!"
8. played my favorite game, loaded questions, with my favorite people.

seriously in love with the 717. seriously in love with home. seriously in love with christmas break.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

tis the season

1. christmas
2. finals

one is silver and the other sucks.

while in the tech center attempting to finish my paper, i took a lil picnik detour and make this fancy little seasonal header. want to hear a funny story about poinsettias?

this summer, my dad's friend was over and he ripped my dad's favorite golf shirt. (as in right off of my dad's back.) so the next time my dad went over to his friend's house, he was handed a shirt. this shirt was bright orange with plants all over it. the plants were green. my dad looked at the shirt and thought that the shirt was covered with poinsettias and that the makers of the shirt had just made them green to go against the bright orange/red shirt. he wore this shirt every time he went golfing this summer. the shirt is in fact covered with pot leaves.

time to work.

Sunday, December 6, 2009


And by accomplished I mean in making that header, not in getting any actual work done.
But I swear I had every intention to revise my youth cultures paper, until I realized that not a single on of my bitch professor's comments were in any way helpful. She seriously sucks, I've never written more terrible things on a teacher evaluation. I have to have a conference with her tomorrow, so that should be fun. I hate this paper, so much. It's going to take over my life the next two nights.

Fun weekend, though.
Stayed in and watched endless movies on Friday night. Laughed hysterically at Jacob Black.
Layed around all day Saturday, then went to the Broad Street Line A'Capella concert. Then Ron's, which was a lot of fun.
Layed around all day today, except for eating food. And coming to the tech center.

Only three more days of classes! New York on Friday! Winter break next Thursday!

Monday, November 30, 2009

and we'll all shine on

No matter how short it was, Thanksgiving break was lovely.
Those who live in the 717 are some of my favorites. They're just good people.

I'm actually pretty excited for the next two weeks. I have a lot of work, but it's manageable.
I'm focusing on the fun things that are coming:
New York City for the day, Secret Santa reveal, viewings of every Christmas movie ever made, multiple A'Capella concerts.
I'm going to focus on these positives, rather than only thinking about the finals that are looming ahead.
Christmas season, show me what you got.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

thanksgiving break is such a tease.

Monday, November 23, 2009

I was just talking to Jayda about something that happened two summers ago. We mentioned that it had been TWO summers ago and it was crazy because it doesn't seem that far in the past. Time has flown by since college started and I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around it. I've always been told to enjoy my time here and to not let any second pass by because it's gone before you know it, but I never believed anyone. College would pass by at the same speed that high school did and I would want out by the time it was time for me to go.
By the time I was a sophomore in high school, I was already counting down the time I had until college. In class I would day dream about what I would do once I graduated, how different life would be. But things are different has a sophomore in college. College is a bubble like no other time in our lives its. Nothing has been or will be the same as the experiences that colleges brings to us. And I'm now terrified of what's coming after. Finding a job, finding a husband, starting a family...WHAT THE FUCK. It's all so scary and it's getting closer and closer and I can't stop it.

I cannot believe that I'm halfway through my sophomore year already. I'm starting to think about how I'll look back on my college life when I'm older; will I have had enough fun? Will I be the one with the good stories? Maybe I'm by father's daughter (which I totally am. It's almost ridiculous), but that's who I want to be.
I want to do well in school. I want to form life long friendships with people here. I want to be a proud Temple alumni. I want to get into the career I have chosen and do well. And I want to leave here with a handful of memorable stories.

But right now, I'm going to live in the moment. I'm going to start living with no pre-action regrets. I need to stop thinking about things and start doing things, within limits of course. I want to loosen up and start talking to people that I wouldn't normally talk to and do things I wouldn't normally do.

PS. No matter how cliche, this song is great.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

footloose and fancy free

So excited for Spring Break! I just can't stop looking up things to do in the South. It's a whole other world and I want to see it all.

7. Art
13. Duhh
16. Weird

Enough obsession for today. RoadsideAmerica is my new favorite website

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

this world is his; his and hers alone

Lately I've been wanting to go somewhere new. A place where things are simple; no school work with deadlines. Maybe that's why I became obsessed with this song today. It's speaking to me.
Anyone who knows me knows that this is not a normal feeling for me. I'm a traditionalist. I like things to stay the same. I'm comfortable where I am and change scares me.
But not lately. Lately, I've been craving something new. I'm really happy with where I'm at right now; I'm feeling more confident, I'm happy, I'm where I belong, but there's a little part of me that wants to go somewhere and breathe new air.
This is part of the reason that I'm so upset that I can't study abroad. When I started college, studying abroad was something that I always wanted to do. I wanted to go somewhere huge, on my own, and become a better and more experienced person.
I realize that I can always travel overseas through my life, but I'm worried that I won't. Studying abroad is the perfect opportunity to get long-term travel out of your system before you get stuck in the grind of your career and I'm afraid that I'm missing out on that. I know that once real life starts, I'm unlikely to travel often, and that's saddens me.
My main goal as of now is to make it to Ireland while I'm still and O'Neil. That is something that is really important to me. Goals are always a good thing, right?
Oh well, I guess I have a trip to the South to look forward to. Literal midnight train to Georgia?

With all of that negativity said, I am feeling like a brand new, better version of myself lately. At the risk of sounding lame, I feel like I've got a pep in my step lately.
I'm participating actively in classes, saying hello to everyone I know on campus, becoming more independent, and generally just growing up. It's a good feeling.
I like mature Corrie.

I am counting down the days until Thanksgiving break. I can't wait to see everyone at home and eat a shit ton of good and have it be acceptable and appropriate. Best day of the year.
However, I am looking forward to another good weekend at TU before a weekend off. Last weekend was wonderful and silly and all around a great time, and I'm hoping for much of the same.

PS: How fabulous is Gladys? I wish there were still musicians like that.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

weird things that comfort me

1. blinking reception towers. something about driving past them on the highway at night on my way home from anywhere.

2. just having the oven light on in the kitchen. after making dinner every night, this is how my mom leaves the kitchen at home. it's nice.

3. the song "see the world" by gomez. everytime it comes on my itunes, i think of my dad. it's obviously advice to a young boy, but it reminds a lot of things my dad told me when i was younger.

4. sleeping with a fan. if i'm away from my own room for a night without a fan, the next night is always a great night sleep. if you don't sleep with a fan, you should try it. the white noise is incredible.

5. the philadelphia skyline at night. i know i've already talked about this in a post, but it remains true. walking down cecil and seeing the orange glow from the city hall clock makes me feel at peace. it's nice, every single time.

6. eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. if i'm stressed, i eat one of those and i can feel my worries falling off of me.

stuck inside the groove

i just got a pang of homesick. "why georgia" came on my itunes and i automatically felt an urge for the suburbs. for carlisle. for my parents. for my 717 friends. but i feel all sorts of weird, because i feel like it's not for home as it is now, but home as it was 2 years ago. senior year home. high school home. driving to kings gap at dusk with jayda and laura kelly home. go karting and spending 3 hours in the coldstone parking lot home. harassing mr. erb on a daily basis home. sharing a locker with jayda home. being picked up by sally every morning home. picking laura up in the cancun parking lot home. going sledding at nate's home. spending friday nights in basements home. everything that reminds me of home home.
i don't want to go back to that time, because that is in the past, but i wish that i could go home and everything would still be the same. and while i know that they won't, it's nice to think back on them. nostalgia is good sometimes.

jimmy, you shouldn't leave me in the room by myself for this long. i think too much.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

dawn is breaking everywhere

a list: from me to me

1. stop listening to glee songs so often. your itunes is getting embarrassing.
2. learn to cook. not knowing how to defrost chicken is a no go in life. your kids will most definitely like more than kraft mac and cheese. get with it.
3. eat more fruits and vegetables.
4. stop freaking out whenever someone says the word "carlisle". it's becoming kind of creepy. it is not a coincidence that you got put in the group to read about the indian school. moderation, my friend.
5. up your creative game. your skills parallel a four year olds. find your creative niche.
6. do your friggin' fraggin' homework. be more productive. god, just do it.
7. don't spend money. it's limited. you're never going to have money, future teacher of america, so learn to be money wise sooner rather than later.
8. jim halpert and marshall eriksen are fictional characters. your love runs too deep. don't use them as a guide in finding a real boy.
8a. find a real boy.
9. one brownie a day. ONE FREAKIN' BROWNIE A DAY. why can't you stop eating them? self control, goddammit!
10. give yourself a high five for discovering nantucket nectar's pomegranate pear juice. it's the best thing since arizona iced tea, but it's expensive. see #7.
11. let loose this weekend. come out of it with a good story or two; it's been a few weekends, and you could use it.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

swing low, sweet chariot

Maybe it's my obsession with all things Civil War. Maybe it's the fact that I just finished a paper on Sojourner Truth. Maybe it's Zooey Deschanel's voice. But, whatever it is; this is beautiful.

Last weekend was magnificent. State College is a beautiful town and I had so much fun with Todd and Geoff; but I think my favorite part was the drive up there. Living in Philadelphia, I forget how much I love mountains and country roads. So freeing. Would it be cliche to say that I love fast cars and freedom? Is that socially acceptable? Eh, whatever, it's true.
It took a couple days for me to get back into the swing of things once I returned to Temple, but I'm good now.

It's nice to feel my Temple friends becoming more and more a part of my life with every day. While there are still some moments where I want to see Jayda and just talk to her, it's a good feeling to not have to rely on her as much anymore. She's still my best friend, no doubt about that, but it's nice that I can actually feel myself fully branching out and making my friendships at school more meaningful. It means a lot to me.

I feel like I'm in a really good spot right now and I truly hope that that is not a fleeting feeling.
I love my life. And my friends. And my family (who I get to see again in 3 weeks!).

Tomorrow is Friday, and this weekend should be a good one.
So much free/fun stuff to do. I'm determined to make the most of it.

I love my roommate. I love when he runs into my room just to give me a hug. I love that after a long nap, the first thing he asks for is food. I love that we can have a mini celebration at 3 am just because we finally made the decision to turn the air conditioner on. I love that our fridge isn't stocked with much, but it's never lacking multiple Arizona Iced Teas.

Monday, September 7, 2009


dear skyline of philadelphia,
i love you. you make the walk home from a party by myself worth it. the minute i pass temple towers, you're there, waiting for me, with your glowing lights. you make me feel safe (if only for a split second). you remind me of how big this city is. i am one of 2 million. and that should scare me, but seeing you shining in the distance makes me feel like i belong here; i am a philadelphian. you put my mind at ease.

dear north philadelphia,
i don't care how pungent the smell of poop is in the air, you are glorious and wonderful; you are not as scary as they say. you fill my weekends with fun stories of escapades in the ghetto and experiences that i never thought i could say i had. you are interesting and filled with culture and you are starting to feel like home again.

dear cranberry raspberry juice,
suga how you get so fly? i think i might like you as more than a friend. you are delicious. i woke up craving you this morning, and you did not disappoint. i'm almost done with the current bottle of you, but i fully intend to stock up again. will you be my boyfriend? plz write back.

dear courtyard lights of university village,
whaddafxup? why are you so friggin' bright? i don't think anyone would complain if you took it down a few notches. pretty please? with a cherry on top? hot fudge? i'll even go for sprinkles. i just want to be able to fall asleep more easily. i'll do anything.

dear beds of university village,
you're big and beautiful. i love you.

dear 500 days of summer soundtrack,
you are the bomb. i feel like you were made for my own personal listening pleasure.

dear quentin tarantino,
keep up the good work! i give your movies many huzzahs! nicely done!

dear mappy,
you're the man. it is my dream that the cats will never catch you, and i will help you defend yourself until the end. true love never dies.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

happy happy joy joy

Lately a lot of my family members have been adding me on Facebook, which is weird, but I came across this picture on my aunt's and fell in love with it. This is my Grandpa O'Neil and this face is strangely everything that embodies him. He is one of the most stubborn and crank old man you will ever meet, but he is also hilarious and happy and lovely. I respect Grandpa more than almost any person I have ever met. He has never done anything in which he didn't go above and beyond the call of duty to produce something special. In his prime, he was a leading developer of biological warfare for the army and he worked alongside Jonas Salk to help develop the vaccine for polio, he had five children, and he was married to one of the most beautiful women to ever live, Betty Maloney O'Neil. (The most Irish name ever, no?) They were together for almost 52 years when she passed away 10 years ago, which is a feat in itself. The thing that makes that story even greater is that he never lets you forget that they would still be together today were she still with us, celebrating 62 happy years of marriage. Grandpa always has a twinkle in his eye, and while the spring in his step may be gone, the will to bring it back is always there. He is a great man and I hope to have many more years with him. I love you, Grandpa.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

my loot plays on a double feature screen; your loot went straight to dvd

Hello, blogging world. Long time no update. I still have to do an update on New Hampshire, but I need to myself to take the time to write that entry. However, it was a wonderful trip and I can't wait to be back to TU with all of the family.

So today I went antiquing with Jayda. Success!

1. Jayda's birthday present, "Dirty Old Men Need Love Too"
2. Retro owl candle. Glorious.
3. 2 shot glasses: PENNSYLVANIA KEYSTONE STATE and MAINE with a picture of a lobster. Maine:Lobster.
4. A glorious green mug. The picture doesn't do it justice.

I also picked up another owl figurine, a Hall and Oates 40 for Mary Penxa, and a bicentennial glass.
I have never really been "antiquing" per se, but it was wonderful.

Saturday, July 4, 2009

i want. and possibly need..

everything from the urban outfitters home decor collection.

I held off on posting the Obama figurine, but we all know I want that. But seriously, lately I've been so excited to have my own apartment next year; I'm so excited to decorate it.
Also, Jim: Urban Outifitters has an extensive collection of owl decorative gear. We should take advantage of that. TU! U KNOW!

Monday, June 29, 2009

philosophy sux!!1!11##$@1!!!!

yeah, i said it.
i'm not interested in it and i'm don't wanna hear about it. just live your life and be happy; don't dissect every piece of it. the universe doesn't plan out everything for us and everything is real. try telling someone who is terminally ill that their disease is all a figment of their imagination. no, my dear friend, my parents got a call from their best friend last night. his mother has had cancer for years now, and now she is nearing the end. she has distanced herself from her family and has become unverbal, but one thing that i'm sure she has never once thought is "this ain't real, ya'lllll." birth. life. death. they are not processes that we made up in our minds. they are not figments of our imagination. every person goes through them because it is natural. it is science. it is proven. do not live your life based around some dude who wrote a book and decided to preach their own ideals. form your own. be original, because in my mind, if your philosophy is to live by no philosopy, you're much better off in the long run. happiness is that easy to achieve, i promise. you just need to believe in it. ok, rant over.

on to my new favorite thing:
my back scratcher. yes, one of those hands on a stick. after a bad sunburn, it's all i need? why? because my itchy back is real and i don't want it to be, so i fix it. with a back scratcher aka a gift from the gods. mine is blue and i dug it up from underneath a pile of shoes last night, but let me tell you the dust was all worth it. it hasn't left my side. BFF.
i'm also very much into water right now. and plain white tees. as in the shirt, not the band. i'm very into my temple flip flops. i want to wear them for the rest of my life. i'm also into and the gosselin's gossip. yeah, i'm that girl. finally, i love the city of pittsburgh. it's just cool.

my birthday is on wednesday. i love birthdays. my mom got me a bunch of stuff at ikea! chicka chicka yeah! oh, and jimmy, i have some ideas for decorating our apartment, GET AT ME.

Monday, June 8, 2009

the red white and blue. and yellow. and orange. and green.

I've decided to take a note from the Jimmy and Caitlin playbook and include more pictures in my posts. I decided I'd start with something for Jimmy.

There it is, in all its glory. One of my favorite toys from when I was younger. Brennan and I would have timed competitions to see who could put it back together the fastest.
Unfortunately, the Vermont/New Hampshire piece has since gone missing. Christine!

This little baby, while illegible, says Harrisburg. Home sweet home.

And for an extra dose of cheesy, I decided to connect us all!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

iup: educating bamfs since 1875

Dad in his freshman dorm.
Look at that smirk. That slouch. That beer box "poster". That 'stache.
Bad ass. And he knows it.

iup: bringing parents together since 1875

Hands down, one of my favorite pictures of all time.
This is my parents when they were 19. Thirty years ago. They're so young and in love, and it's still there today.
Plus, my mom is a beauty queen!

weekend update


Friday night I went to a Wingin' It (my high school's improv comedy troupe) show and it was hilarious. Then a group of us went back to Tyler's and watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas which is trippy and weird and I fell asleep. Then we all went to the diner which is always excellent.

Saturday I worked and then we to Stevie's 16th birthday party! I'm GLAD I STAYED...some people had a problem with doing that. But anyways, we swam and ate delicious food and played Banana Grams and told embarrasing stories and read Jayda's 9th grade writings aloud. Then we headed to Tyler's to watch the Pens game, but it was a bust so we ended up on Dickinson's campus. Lame people ruined my mood so I went to my friend Nate's house for a fire with Mikey and Lick Nello. It was nice to hang out with a whole group of college people (except the two people I rolled up with) and just talk about stories from school and compare experiences and what not.

Today I worked again and then we out to Jayda's to swim again. Stevie and I did a mud mask, which I do not recommend cause it sucked. But then we headed to Thornwald for a show in the woods and learned how to play the spoons, which turned out to be a lot of fun. Then Jayda, Stevie and I went to Panera, returned to the bug infested woods, and then attemped to visit Nick at work, which didn't work so we took a drive through the country and blasted music and sang along and talked about how much we had loved the day. We came back to my house and played Apples 2 Apples and talked to my parents and played with my United States puzzle.

All in all, it was a fabulous weekend. And I like a boy.

Wasn't it nice to have a positive post from me? And how about that ending! Wow. I really know how to end things with a bang!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

a funk you don't wanna shake your rump to...

I'm bored at home. Plain and simple.
Even if I'm with my friends every night, we always do the same things. I'm sick of the routine. I'm sick of the funk that my friends upholding their "images" has put me in. I want something fun to happen. I want something new and exciting to happen here. I love Carlisle, I really do, but you do get stuck in a small town routine and while it was nice for awhile, it's starting to wear on me after being at college for a year. In a big city. With culture and diversity and an endless supply of fun and exciting things to do. I'm starting to crave the fast-pace lifestyle again, but all it would take for that to subside would be a change here. I just need something new. But anymore, it seems like that won't come without a complete evolution from the things of now. I think what I need is to get out of Carlisle, for even an afternoon, and just see something new. Smell different smells. Hear different sounds. Meet new people. Just spend my time doing something that I've never done before, or even don't do very often. If anyone has any ideas of exciting things to do, that would be great because I have the motivation, I just need the means.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

i'll be here when it all gets weird

WOW. Sup, blog? Long time no update.

Home has been better than expected, but there have still been moments of awkwardness. I don't feel as close to everyone, which is depressing but understandable and I have accepted it- I am torn between two worlds so there will be uncertainty in between.

I was watching P.S. I Love You the other day (yeah, i like it) and discovered the amazing soundtrack, but more importantly the song "If I Ever Leave This World Alive" by Flogging Molly. It's absolutely beautiful, both musically and lyrically. It's my recent feelings put to music. (PROPS 2 THE IRISH.) Listen to it.

But summer update? Sure.
Suburbia has been good to me. Being in Carlisle makes me so happy and I feel like myself while I'm walking down the tired streets. Hanging out on Dickinson's campus and sitting in the red chairs feels like home, but I do get jealous of the high grass level. C'mon, TU. (Dickinson does not have a secret garden, though.)

Summer been a series of random hanging out in different basements and working and driving in the country but not country drives. It's been nice spending time with my family and friends and the changes that have happened over the past year are not enough to make me not enjoy myself. My friends are good people and no matter how close we may or not be we do have fun, even if we can't always agree how to spend our time.

Tomorrow is Sally's party, which I am very much looking forward to. It'll be nice to party at home with a group of people in which I feel comfortable with each and every one of them.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

you spin my head right round...

right round. like a record, baby. right round round round.
that is what i would say to the end of my freshman year if the end of my freshman year was ever personified.

i am a mixed bag of emotions, but one thing that i am sure of is that i feel completely different than i expected at the beginning of the year. i really love temple now. i love my friends here, they are great people. to be honest, i probably feel more like myself with them at this point than i will when i go home and see the majority of the people there. i just feel comfortable here, and having just now gotten to that point makes it hard to leave that.
i of course want to see my family; i miss them so much. jayda saw my dad and brennan at the grocery store yesterday and i got really jealous. i want to see my dad and my brother! i can't wait for my mom and dad to come pick me up next wednesday. 5 days away. INSANE.
but still, moving out means that deedee is no longer my roommate. (but it does mean that jimmy officially is!) i'm going to miss dee so much. she is someone that i would never have been friends with under regular circumstances, but i am so glad we were put together. S214 has seen its ups and downs with roommates, but dee and i have stuck it out and it shows. i am so glad that everything worked out, because i really do love that girl. it's going to be a big adjustment to not have her to come back and bitch to right when i get back from class. jimmy better be ready ;)

going home for the summer was something that i have been excited for since winter break, until about 4 weeks ago. i went home for easter and things were remarkably different. a bad different and it was really hard to be there. granted, jayda wasn't there, which always makes things easier for me, but i kept feeling like i should still be close with every single person i was with. but i didn't. this was around the time that i started to feel a lot closer to people here, which could have something to do with it, but i also think that as a group, my home friends are just growing apart. i am a traditionalist, in every sense of the word, and for me it was really hard to accept. fortunately, i have done so at this point, but it took a lot of time and jayda's convincing. A. LOT.
another peice of the home puzzle is the fact that shawn and i are pretty much no longer, although i don't really regret it that much. we weren't meant to be friends for the long run, and if the reason that he's mad at me is because i got close with people here and he didn't, then it becomes a touchy situation. in retrospect, i should've put more effort into it, but if i put as much in as i did the first semester, i would be with no friends next year when he isn't here anymore. this summer is going to be shawn and i's final test, and while i hope we pass it, i am not very optimistic. but who knows what will happen when we're forced to get through our awkwardness for the sake of our shared group of friends.

on top of all that is my hectic beyond belief finals and moving out schedule, which i have pretty much accepted, although it sucks. hard. but i'll get through it and then i'll go home, which despite all of my mixed feelings will definitely be relaxing for a very long time. i am excited that i will get to see jayda and sally all of the time, and i plan to hang out with todd a lot more this summer. i also plan to be in harrisburg with caitlin and jimmy every now and then, and hopefully even take some roadtrips with them to see everyone else from the temple gang. we'll see how everything goes. i'm so excited for the summer, but i will miss the city and temple and my friends.

while listening to music that shall remain undisclosed, i got really excited for summer in carlisle. driving on summer nights, to be specific. i love summer nights. they are one thing that just wouldn't be the same in the city.
ok, i am excited to go home. very excited. but things will be different. that's what the above rant is about.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

wednesday night feels alright?

drinking on a wednesday night? what? it still feels weird, and it's happened the last two weeks. who have i become? am i a lush? nah, just kidding, it's been fun. the past week has been fun. a lot of fun.

last thursday night was ridiculous, just sitting in 324 with people being psuedo-drunk/high/dead and making jokes about stupid things and playing impromptu games of "which way are you going/which way am i going" with juan fernandez, hot foreign basketball superstar.

last weekend was a nice mix of partying, drinking, and laying around in the beautiful weather. it was keiran's birthday, so we celebrated in style by playing the arrested development drinking game, which is a fun way to become inebriated. i recommend it.

this week has been stressful, especially today. it may have been spring fling, but my professors decided that they wanted to kill me with work and tests and assigning things. f you, profs. f you. it's crazy how busy i'm going to be with work starting next week. ugh. it's definitely starting to feel like the end of the semester. and you know what also sucks? jayda coons going home TOMORROW. actually, in about 10 hours and I don't get to go home for like 3 weeks. CRAZY. and dumb. crazy dumb.

show at la salle, frisbee at princeton, and dinner at julie's this weekend! plus, it's going to be 85 degrees on Saturday. frick yes! sun(burn), cars, roadtrips, homemade food!
l8r sk8rs.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

diners, english accents, and spoiler alerts

home is most definitely where the heart is.

i am positive that central pennsylvania is all powerful- it can cure many things. such as cravings for terrible food (diners), homesickness (home), etc. while things are changing, it is still awesome to see people who you feel comfortable with all the time. it's nice to have no inhibitions about anything. it's easier to just be, which is always a comforting feeling. a divide is definitely forming within my group, but for the time being we're trying to resist it, and while we won't be able to next year, we're all trying to hold on to the same thing, which ultimately brings us together in the end. one thing that would have made this weekend better is if jayda had come home. i miss that bitch.

so, run down of events? sure.
friday i came home and ate pizza with my family, then drove to zoe's house to hang out and play with her big fat dog and eat all of the food in her cabinets. we made our way into town and zoe and i split off from the group and went to hang out in todd's basement, which is one of my favorite places to be. left todd's and ended up in the wal mart parking lot (so 717...) and made our way to the quarry, which wasn't opened, so we hung out on the porch. attempted to comingle with some dickinson kids, but that was a fail so we just sat on the red chairs on campus and talked and then made our way to the diner- the perfect ending to a 717 night if you ask me.

saturday i spent the entire day with my family, which was relaxing and nice. we cleaned out the garage, which wasn't terrible even though it sounds like it. then we played our "guess the song" game (i won) and we played some poker, kinda sorta. brennan started singing "poker face" in and english accent, which easily became my new favorite thing in the entire world. i went to target with b, which of course i loved. because i love target. who doesn't? if you don't, you're an asshole. (jim, i think we should get our dishes and other such things for the apartment at target. y/n?). met up with people at sarah's and hung out in her basement. i love basements, i have come to realize. they're so nice when they're not in a frat house. after sarahs, we ended up at the diner again. saw a lot of people there that we had seen there the night before, which is one of my favorite things about Carlisle. ate bad food and talked about things for awhile and i ruined the end of crime and punishment for my senior friends, but then the conversation turned philosophical which is always the cue to break things off. never a good idea with my friends. after we hugged, said bye, kissed each others heads, went our seperate ways, i drove around Carlisle and just blasted music and called jayda. beautiful night in the suburbs.

going to my aunt's house then back to temple tomorrow! i'm excited this time! yay!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

the friends they are a-changin'...

I really felt it the last time I went home. Granted, none of my college age friends were home, but everything just felt different. I'm sure it's a mix of me and them, but a major change is occuring. My senior year, everyone was close---we were a group, but now it seems like everyone is breaking into their own mini-groups, and mini-groups are never as good as the original group. I could just feel that we were no longer on the same page at all anymore, and while that is inevitable, it's still hard. I'm growing, they're growing, everyone is growing and changing and it's hard and it's weird and it's awkward, but I suppose it has to happen.

I'm feeling closer to people at school, though. The first half of this year I truly felt that I had no one, but it all seems to have changed this semester-- I finally feel like I'm being accepted. I'm placing the blame for my first semester on myself because I was afraid and nervous and awkward. I always felt that I was simply tagging along to things instead of being wanted. But now, although I do still feel like that sometimes because everyone else is so close already and I do feel like somewhat of an outsider and I still feel annoying sometimes, I feel like I'm wanted more, like people are enjoying having me with them. It's nice. Temple is finally starting to feel like home to me. Almost. Sorta. Kinda. It took longer than it did for other people, because I am so connected to central Pennsylvania and Carlisle, but it's finally starting to feel more real.

I'm feeling more at peace with myself this semester. To me, that is the best feeling in the world, and I have even more hopes for next semester. I feel comfortable with my decisions on who to live with and what to major in and who to associate with. I'm beginning to feel more mature and grown-up and that is exciting. I'm feeling more confident and I'm glad.
Basically, I'm finally starting to feel more like Corrie again.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

No longer a virgin...

After (secretly) reading all of my friend's blogs, I have decided to start my own. While I'm not sure if my life is exciting enough to write about everyday, I am going to try and put my thoughts to words every now and then on here.

Since coming to college, I have learned a lot about myself and have never really vocalized them to anyone besides Jayda. I don't have too many layers to myself, but it will be nice to write about things, felings and other random shit.

So, I have a blog now! Huzzah!
And yes, Jimmy, I have known about your blog for some time now. I keep secret secrets.