Sunday, December 12, 2010

remember george, no man (or woman) is a failure who has friends

I am so overwhelmed with emotions right now that I felt the need to write a blog entry about it.

I cried when my mom helped me move into my house in August. I felt like a with people I don't know with no friends to fall back on. My eight best friends from Temple had left the country for almost four months and I had no idea where to even begin. Everyone at Temple had their groups of friends already; I would be an outsider at best. For the first few weeks of the semester, I wanted to go home and return to Philadelphia in December when some of the people I love most would also be here. I'm not very good at being alone and I had temporarily lost the people upon whom I depended to make sure I never had to be for very long.

However, I made new friends. This semester taught me that I am a likable person. The Corrie writing this now wants to punch of the Corrie of September in the face, because that Corrie was unnecessarily pessimistic. I have a whole other group of people to love now...funny people, kind people, smart people, people that I thought I would never meet this semester. If nothing else, having my best friends leave for a semester taught me to have faith in myself, because I am kind of great. Anyone reading this blog knows that I have had traumatic experiences with friends in the past, leaving me unsure of relationships, but this semester helped me realize that my fears have no basis.

Waiting for Jimmy in the International Arrivals Hall this afternoon made me realize how important friends are. (At the risk of sounding corny, waiting in an airport and finally seeing the person you're there for is just as great as it appears in the movies. I thought the excitement was romanticized, but it's not.) Many people take having friends for granted. While I've never had a lack of friends around me, this semester helped me to realize that having good people in your life is a gift; one that should be appreciated everyday.

I have never been filled with so much love as I am right now. Temple crew new and old, C Luvers, my family....I don't have just any old people around me. I have the best people. I wish there was some way to tell you all daily how much you make me beam, but this will have to suffice. Thank you for your love.