I was just talking to Jayda about something that happened two summers ago. We mentioned that it had been TWO summers ago and it was crazy because it doesn't seem that far in the past. Time has flown by since college started and I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around it. I've always been told to enjoy my time here and to not let any second pass by because it's gone before you know it, but I never believed anyone. College would pass by at the same speed that high school did and I would want out by the time it was time for me to go.
By the time I was a sophomore in high school, I was already counting down the time I had until college. In class I would day dream about what I would do once I graduated, how different life would be. But things are different has a sophomore in college. College is a bubble like no other time in our lives its. Nothing has been or will be the same as the experiences that colleges brings to us. And I'm now terrified of what's coming after. Finding a job, finding a husband, starting a family...WHAT THE FUCK. It's all so scary and it's getting closer and closer and I can't stop it.
I cannot believe that I'm halfway through my sophomore year already. I'm starting to think about how I'll look back on my college life when I'm older; will I have had enough fun? Will I be the one with the good stories? Maybe I'm by father's daughter (which I totally am. It's almost ridiculous), but that's who I want to be.
I want to do well in school. I want to form life long friendships with people here. I want to be a proud Temple alumni. I want to get into the career I have chosen and do well. And I want to leave here with a handful of memorable stories.
But right now, I'm going to live in the moment. I'm going to start living with no pre-action regrets. I need to stop thinking about things and start doing things, within limits of course. I want to loosen up and start talking to people that I wouldn't normally talk to and do things I wouldn't normally do.
PS. No matter how cliche, this song is great.